Life as we know it...

Today is bittersweet for me. I have been walking around in somewhat of a denial that our little lady is going to be arriving in less than 8 hours. We are scheduled to check in for surgery at 5:30 am. All day I have been receiving phone calls, texts, and well wishes from all of our AMAZING family and friends.

Talia, you are loved so much already. To have the support system you have is a blessing. Today I sent the boys off to Grandma's for the week to stay while you and I are at the hospital. I took one last picture of them as just them before your big arrival. I felt like I have done everything I can to be prepared. The boys are a taken care of, the house is clean, and there are groceries for the visitors that will be in and out of the house. Your room is ready and very pretty. I have our bags packed and both your dad and Grandpa Dave took the car and washed it. But I know I can prepare and check things off my list but I do not have a clue how I will feel after meeting you tomorrow.

You surprised me with this pregnancy. I never thought I would have 3 kids let alone a daughter. A daughter. I don't think I will quite believe it until you are in my arms. Just know that right now in this moment I am overcome with emotion. The numbness is beginning to fade and the world is beginning to become more vivid. When you have a child it is as if someone shines a light down for everything to become more sparkly. You see things differently, you feel things differently, and you don't have the slightest care in the world. All you do is rejoice in the moment, be grateful for this life that was created for you. I am starting to see the sparkle. I know that I am already in love with you and I promise to do my best for you. There are times you are going to want to trade me in for a different model but I can guarantee you that no one in this lifetime will love you as much as I do. I vow to help you make your world what it should be. Because life as we know it is about to change and I at this moment would not trade that for anything.
See you soon baby girl!