Today has been two years

Today has been two years since my Grandma June past. It is one of those days that sticks in your head that you can remember every detail. The weather, what people were wearing, what you ate, etc. The night before she died I had a gut feeling that I needed to get up to the hospital. She was being transferred home the next day. When I got up there my dad and the siblings that were up there decided they would take a break and go grab a bite to eat. It was just her and I. Considering she had twelve kids with spouses, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren not to mention many other people that loved here it was a miracle that I had her all to myself. Since I was little I had played out in my head when my grandma was going to pass because it was one of my biggest fears. I played out in my head how I would tell her how much I loved her, that she was by far one of the people that I admired the most in this world, and what a great job she had done. When I was there she kept asking me for her shoes and where her mom went. I told her that her shoes were in the closet and she was the mom. She kept coming in and out of sleep or maybe consciousness looking back. I as stroking her hair and I realized it was my moment. The moment that I had played over and over to tell her exactly how I felt. Now for those that know me you I understand that this type of emotional stuff is hard for me. But I swallowed my pride and said it all. I said it all out loud and she listened. Not for the sake of listening but because it was as if I was reconfirming to her that she did a good job and we were all proud of her. After I told her everything I can still hear her saying,"I hope I did. I hope that everyone knows I did my best." Shortly after our conversation she quit asking for her shoes and fell into a slumber. That night I left. The next day she died. They were getting her ready to go back to her apartment, she sat up, looked at her children and died. My aunts say her eyes turned this crystal blue color. My Aunt Sandy who is a "healer" by trade claims she say my grandma turn to the light with her shoes on and danced all the way to heaven. There was a crowd waiting for her and as she danced closer she became younger and more vibrant with each step. I believe it and some day plan to dance all the way to her...I love you grandma.