When it hits you smack dab in the face...

I had an epiphany tonight. I was standing at bowling league (it was my first night, I was a sub) with woman my mothers age telling them about my new minivan, complaining about how sore I was going to be from bowling-yes bowling, and how I couldn't wait to go to Minneapolis to have our mini holiday celebrating 10 years of marriage. It occurred to me right then and there, that I am officially middle aged. Believe it or not, I did use to be cool, secretly I still think I am. But cruising around in the mini reminds me (no matter how hard I try to tell myself the opposite) I have officially stepped out of the cool zone. 33 years old, 10 years of marriage, 3 kids, minivan, and bowling league. WOWZER! If someone would have told me that 10 years ago I would have spit my kamikaze and/or scooby snack all over them and told them to stick it. No, I would have used other choice words and stomped off in my too short of skirt with my too tight of top.
Middle aged is something that I bucketed all my friends into because a good majority of them have always been older than me. Now when you say I'm 33 and she's 36 it pretty much sounds the same. Versus when I was 18 and she was 21 or when I was 28 and she was 31. I loved torturing my girlfriends with our age differences. Now it all sounds the same. I hear myself saying,"Age is just a number. You are only as old as you feel." Lame middle aged me.
I love driving the minivan but instead of the occasional check out I get the minivan once over. You can see the other minivan drivers-especially other men wondering what kind of options it has and MPG. I find myself trying to race the other minis when we pull up to a stoplight side by side.
Guys use to try guess my bra size, they now try to guess how many kids I have. The best is when I tell them 3 and they get this horrified look on their face expressing complete sympathy for the dad. You tell other woman, especially older ones and they respond with,"Ooh I bet your busy. Don't miss those days." Ummm-okay, who says that? I just fell asleep typing this...not kidding.