But it didn't work. I am now just irritated!! So this past weekend is Memorial. This past week I have been picturing my long weekend at the lake, relaxed, and calm. Children playing in the field, picking up shells, and enjoying some adult beverages with my lake friends. Nope, not me. Instead I am sitting at my house on a gorgeous Sunday afternoon looking out my window at the golfers. I ended up coming home last night because Alex ran a fever yesterday and as the day progressed so did his fever as well as his becoming more uncomfortable. I knew that if I drove home with him, put him in his own comfy bed he would feel better. Good call because this morning his fever had broke, I bathed him, and fed him some oatmeal. He returned shortly after to his crib for a long morning nap. The part of me that is the mother is relieved that my baby is feeling better. The part of me that is missing out at the lake is very irritated with my husband who is having lunch at Zorbaz's as I angrily type on my keyboard. The logical part of me knows that Erik deserves time to hang with his friends at the lake, I also am glad that Anthony is able to play with his lake friends. The flip side is I do get tired of being the mom sometimes. Why is it that we naturally step into the responsibility? Do not get me wrong Erik is a wonderful father. There is not one thing he would not do for me or the boys. Well except tell everyone that Alex and I are going to be back today and that since Alex is feeling much better but not 100% that tonight we need the camper to be low key. He doesn't want to be "rude". I matter of factly told him that it truly is a better idea to be rude to his wife who will now be staying home again to ensure that Alex gets the rest he needs. I was able to do that trying to hold my composure, bursting into tears, all the while slamming the phone down. AJ posted about snapping recently and let me tell you I definitely snapped today. So I don't win the coolest wife award today-DO NOT CARE!!
***Update: Erik has the camper free of disturbances (love our friends but love my sanity more today), Alex and I will be heading down to the lake shortly. He will sleep peacefully and I will have a conversation with my old friend Gray Goose.
5 comments:
Melissa: i so understand how you feel. No matter what, we put the burden on ourselves. Even if my husband stepped up and said that he would take care of a sick child or something, I would feel like it's my job.
It's just the nature of the beast I guess huh? I am glad you got to get back out there, and I hope you had a great time.
Reading this post today I do win being a big baby award...just had to vent at that moment-sorry!
No, we all totally get it. Like I heard someone say recently. We love our kids, but we don't always love being a "Mom." haha!
I was thinking of you all day on sunday after Alli told me that you had to go home. I knew how excited you were to have a long weekend before diving into the new job. I'm glad you got to go back down at least for a little while.
Love ya
Kami
Wow, I can completely identify with you! It's good to know I'm not the only one who hosts pity parties now and then...see my most recent post ;)
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