Sanity

I swear to you the only thing that is keeping me sane lately is this blog. I joined my family for lunch yesterday (my dad's entire family). We were getting ready to eat and my aunt suddenly disappears. About an hour goes by and you can start to feel the tension in the room, my stomach feels really icky. A short time later the children are told to go to the backyard because we need to have an adult meeting. At this point I am wondering if I am considered an adult or child. I am reassured the I am an adult and should stay. They break the news, it is not as if someone has been hurt physically but I see my family fall apart. I have made a decision today that it is time to "detox" my life. I cannot take anymore unnecessary drama, life is too short. I will not pose judgement on people's decisions and actions. Things happen for reasons that are out of your control. As you grow up it is okay to say your peace but then get over it. I feel like bad energy is circling around me right now and I choose to not become part of it but learn from it. My family has always seemed to be an area in my life that I considered to be "untouchable". I now realize that nothing is entirely sacred but it is up to me to try keep it that way.

On a very exciting side note Anthony can draw all of the letters of the alphabet now, he just ran up and showed me a picture of Mickey Mouse that he just drew. Pretty darn cute. Alex is constantly saying,"da da da da da." I respond with, "ma ma ma ma." He is sitting up very steady now. Over the weekend Erik said that he tried to pull himself up on the couch. He is really solid and I am curious to see if he walks earlier than his older brother. He is definitely laid back. My relatives thought the two were so fun to watch. Anthony is charming the crowd with his usual antics and Alex just smiles at each new face.