Today is definitely a new day.

Thanks for all the kind words and support, not what I thought I needed but it turns out it feels good to get support from my "secret" community of women that I have come to adore in new ways from my experience of blogging. It is definitely my therapy and I am grateful that I began doing it.

Regardless, the week did end on a much better note. After letting go and realizing that it is okay if not all parts of my life are synchronizing how I would ideally like I went into full force recovery mode. I was lucky to find a girl that I think is going to be wonderful at solely marketing Candidate Connection. I had a heart to heart with Michael my partner and let him know what we needed to work on "together" to make this company work for the both of us. He answered exactly like I was hoping and recognized what we needed to work on as a team as well as what he needs to take care on his side so some stress is released from me. Erik and I had a great conversation, he truly is my best friend. Whether he drives me insane or not, he is what God ordered for me and I thank him for that. I did go and get a second job just to make myself feel more secure during this economy and for me to have another outlet besides being a caretaker. I found out Usher's was hiring, went and filled out an application, and met with the manager. Granted I have not been a part of the serving world for 6-7 years or so but the manager knew some of the people that I made a lot of money with back in the day and hired me on the spot. So it will be a good way to ease my anxiety about the holidays as well as have some time to myself and maybe even have a little fun well doing it.

Today I rode up to Baudette with my sister and my boys. I love my sweet babies and am excited to make a birthday cake with them tomorrow for Grandpa Dave. My mom and I are going to be preparing Prime Rib together, I am going to spend some much needed time with my family, and try to not kill my sister (Faith feels the same way-love/hate relationship).