So today I was at lunch with one of my girlfriend's. We were chatting, nothing crazy. A person walks past, I turn my head and make eye contact. Keep talking, don't even mention it to my friend. Wonder why I had to wear the "mom" polka dot shirt today? Let me clarify something before all you hens start clucking. I am very happy with my husband. I am very grateful his path is the one I chose to go down. But there are always those "others" in the world that are from you past that have you sometimes wondering "what if"?
Before Erik and I married we were living together, I broke up with him, moved out. and started seeing this other person. It was for a summer. Maybe my "summer romance" like on Grease (lol) but without John Travolta. I thought he was great. We spent a lot of fun unquality time together. He was different than Erik in many ways and at the time was very endearing to me. Until I asked him for a glass of water. He brought me a plastic cup of luke warm tap water. Yep, that did it. Erik always brought me ice cold water with lots of ice in a tall glass, just the way I liked it. I literally left that other person's house, drove home, and called Erik and told him that we had to get back together. I did not want to go another day without him and I never called or spoke to that other person again. Well not until I ran into him Valentine's Day the following year and told him I was engaged. Uncomfortable conversation. Regardless I still tease Erik that he is my tall drink of water without admitting to him why. Some things are best unsaid. I think we are reminded why we have chosen the partners we have when we run into the "what ifs" of this world. If there is one thing I know for sure is I love Erik and he pours a mean drink of water.
2 comments:
I don't cluck - I think that's the chicken in your pocket.
Seriously, though, you and Erik were born for eachother. I really believe that in my heart and soul.
I think many of us who married someone who we started dating young went through the same thing. I dated someone I thought would be WAY better. Turned out he was a freaky psycho. In the end, I suppose it was for the better, because when Thad and I got back together, I stopped thinking there was someone better out there.
It's odd how you can see someone or have them pop up in a dream to get your mind going though....it's human nature I think.
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