That's the way it is.

When I first began "blogging" I have to admit I wasn't sure if I could pull it off. I wanted to be truthful but was worried about letting others into my world of crazy thoughts. Truth be told most of the time I forget that others ever even read this. It is now one of my most treasured secrets. When I sit down to write it makes me feel like a better person. Like I still have me. That even though my life seems chaotic and crazy it's just mine. It is truly my own personal therapy. That being said I am going to reveal my 2009 New Year's Resolutions. Honestly this is something that I have for the most part given up on the last couple of years but this year I am going to put them in writing and hold myself accountable. So here it goes.

1. When I am making purchases this year I am going to concentrate much of my spending to the other small businesses of the world. Why? Because I want my small business to thrive therefore it is important that I do my part in supporting other small businesses of the world.
2. I want to get healthy. I feel better when I get my lazy ass up and go for a walk. I feel like crap when I eat McDonald's. It should be a no brainer but I am going to try retrain my life from a life of convenience to a life of substance. Plus I want to be a good example for my boys.
3. My motto for the last 3 months or so is when I am making a decision I think,"Is this a need or a want?" When you actually ask yourself this questions it is amazing how many times the answer turns to being a want. Walk away, don't look back, and odds you will have no memory of it the next day. Sounds like I am talking about something completely wrong but the subject matter I am regarding is consumer spending.
4. I will be supportive of my husband, family, and friends no matter if I don't agree with decisions they are making in their lives. I learned this past year that people are going to make decisions you don't like. The bad news is that sometimes it is clearly none of your damn business. In the end things seem to always work out for the best.
5. I am going to seriously try count to three before I get frustrated with the men in my life. Turns out two of them are under the age of five and the other for the most part tries to uncomplicate my life versus the analogy I tell myself sometimes. I will kiss and hug each of them in the morning and night. I will say my prayers every night like Anthony.

Lastly, I will be the change I want to see in the world. I really thought turning 30 was traumatic. Turns out I have a feeling this is going to be my best decade yet. I can just feel it.